well ..well....well

It's been almost a year. I have had a roller coaster ride.I began a journey and in the midst of it all ..lost a friend...a very important friend and have been grieving for a long time. Sometimes life really throws everything at you to see how well you survive a storm.I have learnt a lot tho.. . I have learnt that you have to believe people when they say nice things about you. You have to listen to your mind and not so much on the heart. I lived by my heart and then i got burnt . I now want to be a different person than i was last year. I want to be better..i don't want to be so hard on myself. I do not want to be taken on such a rollercoaster of emotions where i am always the loser. I want to show myself i can see something through to the very end. I want to be able to in two years time stand in front of a group of people and show i am an achiever...i want to be the person i amon the inside but rarely show on the outside. I also want to show that by grieving something that cannot be is wsteful of time i have with plenty enough for one person.

you cannot help who you love but you can minimise the damage to others. I have alot to prove. I have a lot to achieve and i have a lot to desire about myself. I will show the world that my friend lost out ...not me xx